“Always be kind, for everyone is fighting a hard battle.” -Plato

Integral film, Instax 210, 29 Dec ‘11 (c) Camie Juan

I caught you stealing glances at me and it was the best feeling ever.

There are certain emotions in your body that not even your best friend can sympathize with… But you will find the right film or the right book, and it will understand you.

I think that if life separates us, and we end up in totally different places, I’ll always remember when our paths aligned for this period of time; and I’ll be thankful for that, and hope that wherever you are, you’ll be thankful for that too.

The real truth is I probably don’t want to be too happy or content, because then what? I actually like the quest, the search. That’s the fun. The more lost you are, the more you have to look forward to.

Life’s Tough. Life’s really tough. Uh, for everyone in different ways-different degrees-but it all amounts to the same thing. We all struggle with sad things. And then like-and it’s scary because we don’t know if there is anyone watching us. And wouldn’t it be nice if there was someone watching us? Some people come to terms with that easier. I can’t, I like the idea that there is a greater purpose. And that’s why maybe I wanted to become an artist.

365words:

January 14, 2011

I have boundary issues with men. Or maybe that’s not fair to say. To have issues with boundaries, one must have boundaries in the first place, right? But I disappear into the person I love. I am the permeable membrane. If I love you, you can have everything. You can have my time, my devotion, my ass, my money, my family, my dog, my dog’s money, my dog’s time - everything. If I love you, I will carry for you all your pain, I will assume for you all your debts (in every definition of the word), I will protect you from your own insecurity, I will project upon you all sorts of good qualities that you have never actually cultivated in yourself and I will buy Christmas presents for your entire family. I will give you the sun and the rain, and if they are not available, I will give you a sun check and a rain check. I will give you all this and more, until I get so exhausted and depleted that the only way I can recover my energy is by becoming infatuated with someone else.

Don’t stress the could haves. If it should have, it would have.

Love this book.

(via happinessword)