When you lose something that means so much to you.

I know, that sounded so emo, but I’m not speaking of a person, more of a thing that holds sentimental value.

Last year when Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part two showed, Gab surprised me with center seats for IMAX on the first day of screening. I remember going home from the gym, all tired and out of it, and finding a white envelope on the bed with my name on it.  I opened it and two tickets fell out, with a letter from Gab that had doodles of a bear and a cake on it. It was a thing we had as friends, like a nickname we had for each other. That instantly turned my night around. Gab led me to believe for days and days that all tickets were sold out everywhere, so two center seat tickets were the least of my expectations. Anyway, I am 100% sure I kept the letter because 1.) I’m not a cold hearted bitch to throw it away and 2.) It was really cute and I tend to keep things like that. But now I have no idea where it is.

Another thing I lost was the card from the cake Gab surprised me with one morning. I opened the fridge to check for food, even though I knew what was already in there, out of habit I guess, and found a box of Mango Bravo from Conti’s with a card on it from Gab saying that this was the cake he wanted me to try and since it was Kimi’s birthday in a few days, it was for her as well (though they haven’t met that time!). I kept that card, and I’m pretty sure I placed it in my wallet but nope, it’s not there anymore.

I suck at these things and I still hope to find it somewhere in my room or at Kimi’s house. Those were all such sweet things Gab did for me before we were anything, and I just want them back.

SADFACE.

Classes resume on Monday and I have to go back to my sort-of-complicated-but-not-really living situation, aka an unwilling hermit. Living all the way in QC and having to study all the way in Taft is the biggest hassle ever. I’d have to leave 2 hours before classes for an hour commute and that depends on how much traffic (and by traffic I mean human traffic, most of them get pretty rowdy and pushy on train platforms so I stand back and let them get on and wait for a less packed train. Anyway.) there is on the road, which is why I give myself the other hour for allowance. I’d have to take two train rides and walk from the station to my building, which I know isn’t very far, but by the time I get to school I look like I ran a marathon or something. I did this for about a few months during my first year in college, and I ended up getting sick. And so the obvious solution was to live somewhere near my school. That worked for about two years, and I had an awesome time living by myself and having a taste of freedom and independence. I then moved in with Kimi’s family all the way in the south which is an amazeballs living situation because I get to be with family, have fun, and I don’t have to worry about food or laundry.

This situation works out perfectly fine except for the fact that I’m going to be starting bigger and much more tedious projects for the next 3 terms, thus needing the space and less distractions to actually get some work done. So tomorrow, I’ll be going to my grandpa’s condo near school, he has the 2nd floor of his apartment completely unused, and he’s letting me stay there. I need to check it out and plan when to move in. I will be getting the taste of independence again (sort of, my parents still support me lol), which is good because:

1. It’s training for the real world - Cooking myself food, doing my own laundry, cleaning my own place, budgeting my weekly allowance, etc etc.
2. Being away from my home means I’m away from my parents, which means I keep in contact with them through texts. For some reason, this gives us a much better relationship because I’m way more open through texting than face to face interactions.
3. It’s a way of showing my parents that I can be responsible and so if ever I plan to move out when I’m ready after college, they won’t be so scared. (My mom is already trying to get me to leave, so I think it’s just my dad who needs a bit more convincing)

It kind of scares me because I’ve gotten used to having everything I need within reach, and living alone (sort of alone) will limit that. Overall though, I’m pretty excited! I can’t wait to fix up my room and prepare my work area for school projects.

Wish me luck!

1. Gab left for workshop just a few moments ago, and he doesn’t have dinner til about the time he gets home around midnight, so I whipped him up a kind of wrap with beef, bacon, different kinds of cheese, sour cream, scrambled egg, some onions, tomatoes and red bell pepper in it. I have no idea if it will taste good, but at least he won’t go hungry. LOL
2. I can’t believe summer break just went on by like that. I forgot classes resume on Monday next week.
3. I’m going to start living “alone” again, so I’m back to being independent! My lolo (grandpa) on my mom’s side of the family has a condo near school and he doesn’t use the 2nd floor, and so he’s letting me stay there. That means commuting to school, cooking myself dinner, washing my own clothes… FUN. The Real World training!
4. This coming term is going to be HELL. More big projects each week. I want to cry.
5. I still question if Fashion Design is really for me, because it’s what seems to make sense but not what I feel like I’m meant to do.
6. I want to fast forward to the future. NEW YORK is all I see.

Gab and I have this thing we call the ABC-dates and last Thursday we had our B date, which meant doing an activity starting with the letter B and eating at a new restaurant that starts with a letter B. We settled with some bowling and billiards, we’re not really experienced with bowling so we were just going with it, but at the same time we made it into a competition. Whoever would lose would end up having to pay for dinner. Anyway, I’ll leave you guys with some photos. Needless to say, I had quite an amazing day with my boy :)

I won the bowling game by the way! I got two strikes, I was quite giggly and happy.

A few rounds of billiards, I always do well at the start then end up sucking towards the end because I end up putting in Gab’s solids instead of my stripes :|

Determined. LOL

Raspberry vanilla and double chocolate. I forgot what they’re called but you can get them at theold Eastwood mall, beside the escalators going up to the cinema!

How our car rides always are :)

Being cheesy at Burger King. (We were supposed to eat at Bigger Better Burgers, but it closed down so we ended up in Brother’s Burgers instead. Which is totally fine because their burgers are just so damn good)

More cheese!

Heaveeeennn. Gab and I ended up switching burgers halfway through because we liked each other’s burgers better than our own haha

After our date, we headed home to hang out a bit and ended up playing games with my brothers and sisters. It was the ultimate family bonding. We were teaching our little brothers (and Gab) the childhood games we grew up with, like Dr. Quack-Quack and Sardines (backwards hide and seek)… We ended around 2AM, which was so late, my dad let Gab sleepover our house so he didn’t have to go home then come back the next day to pick me up for our south hang-out. Full 24 hours, one of the best weekends of my life :)